Tuesday, July 29, 2008
It is the first time i felt i am so weak, for everything. i can not take it. i always think i am very strong, whatever what happened i could stay clam, even last time i get robbed and almost die, i still can think and use my brain, but what a hell is it now, i felt my heart die. even my closest friend cheat me and betary me just for fun. it is the time i want ask for why. but what can i do, i can not change anything. it is just the life.
i could feel it long time ago,but i do not want to believe it. i am the one who cheat myself. how can i wake up, i dunt need others help. i can wake up by myself. i dunt need this kind of friend. i see her true color after i know her for 5 years.....
Posted by Melissa Zhao @ 1:53:00 am
Time pass by.... so fast exam coming. Oooo.... have no mood to study at all. because of my friend who trying to kill herself, and i need to stay with her everyday. But guess what is the ending after i accompany her for the whole and almost have3 no sleep. she is totally ok. she told me she never thought of killing herself. she just feel it is fun and want to get the attention from others. so sad, i felt i am so stupid. she treat me like a fool, and after everything happened, she just walk away like nothing happened at all. i really felt hurted, ande upset.
what a hell is this kind of friend? i need to forget what happened and study for my exam.
Posted by Melissa Zhao @ 1:11:00 am
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Oooo.... so long i did not edit my blog, a bit busy and lazy recently. Went out to play everyday, really unhealthy life style. Hoo... but i still enjoy it, because i know lots of new friends and most of them are helpful and nice people.but i still feel lonely. i thought i am clear now, but i am still dreaming, and lost myself. A bit sad... i really spend a lot recently, heart pain.
Posted by Melissa Zhao @ 9:20:00 am
Monday, July 07, 2008
I was so unlucky, all the date had been cancelled by my friends today. I was so excited this morning when i woken up, went to shower and make up nicely, wear sexy. But just after i left my house, i received my friend sms said she feel uncomfortable today, so she need to stay at home and have a rest. So i let her go, and went to shoppong by myself because i am meeting another friend 2 hours later. But so sad he called me to cancel it because he suddently got something to deal. I was so depressed. And the worest thing happened hours later, the guy who was supporse to have dinner with me today cancelled it, because he havent finish his meeting. I waited for him to two months, smsing him everyday, from Mauritius to Australia and finnally Singapore for this dinner, But he just cancel it by this, I really felt very very sad.
Posted by Melissa Zhao @ 4:36:00 am
Friday, July 04, 2008
and some more....
Posted by Melissa Zhao @ 10:32:00 am
So happy to take photos with my friends... here are the nice photos
Posted by Melissa Zhao @ 10:22:00 am
